Just needed to write...

My evenings have been pretty low key lately. My energy level is at an all time low, and I am still very sick. Once I put the girls down for the evening, I treat myself to a cup of aveda tea and, well..worry...I worry about this baby and its health, I worry about how we will fit another child into this house, and of course I worry as I have given all of my baby items away, and here we go again...Mostly, I worry on how Olyvia and Emsley will adjust to another child. I am so frightened that I will not be able to share enough one on one time with each of my children...Agh..It is in my blood, I am a worrier...
I had a check up this morning, and so far things look pretty good..The babies heart-beat is very strong, and my uterus is growing as it should. I have lost a few pounds, as food is just revolting at the moment..Although this all sounds fabulous, we all know that at any moment this can all go away..so I continue to remain cautious and hesitant with any form of excitement...
I cry at just about anything lately. For instance the girls and I made a trip to Michaels in search of our new "Project"..They picked out fans that needed to be painted...Well, after we completed our project, I was so amazed at how creative my little girls are, I just balled..Now, even I can admit, that is a little over the top...
Perhaps this evening as I am sipping away at my tea I will try my hardest to enjoy the fact that for today, my baby is thriving, and all is good...